PAIN OF ONE SIDED LOVE 😭

I know you don’t love me,
I know you don’t fucking care about me,

I know you want me dead

I know I’m little bit stupid, innocent emotional fool, extremely sensitive and over emotional vulnerable stubborn boy
But I want to tell you that
I love the feeling I get when I’m around you. I feel you everytime even when you’re not beside. I love you more than I can ever show. I love you, I love your soul. I want to be with you forever alone where everything beautiful can touch our connected souls. I want to surrender and submit my everything to you. I love to see the hidden blush in your eyes. I love your smile.I am so much addicted to you, your soul is beautiful because it’s connected to mine. You bring me close, close to your heart.I can get lost in you and never let you know how beautiful the love is between us. In the nights of thunder, where the clouds merge, the oceans meet, I want to be with you and hold you in me and never let you go anywhere. I love you. Everything dark, I just want to get lost in you, lost where my love will get hidden but it’ll bring you closer to me. But I know you’ll never accept me. I loved you. I still do. With whatever I had, With all of that I still have. And it will be forefer. I am exhausted. And sometimes I can not breathe. You are beats to my heart. You are my oxygen. You are my only. I don’t want to open the doors of my heart for anyone. You’ll live here in my heart.
Each night I put my head to my pillow I try to tell myself I’m strong because I’VE gone one more day without you. You are the reason my patents ask me who I’m texting because I’m smiling and crying so much. Everyday, I’m acting like I’m ok, but you’ll never know the truth. Sometimes the person you love just doesn’t understand how much you love them.
I look up to the sky and talk to you. What I wouldn’t give to hear you talk back. I miss everything about you.
If I had to choose between loving you and breathing. I would use my last breath to say I love you so much heartless.

You don’t know pain until you’ve given someone every ounce of your love and it still wasn’t enough..I can’t even begin to imagine the pain of losing you my life. Without pain how would you know the depth of true love ? Even the animals suffer from love, no one is free from the pains of love. The pain when you love the person who does not care about how you feel. The pain when you love the person who doesn’t love you back is like hugging a cactus, the tighter to hold on, the more it hurts, one sided love is like trying to fly with a broken wing. Nothing hurts more than realizing she meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to her.

You’re that pimple on my skin that hurts me yet I can’t get rid of you
Still I smile and even cry like a fool dumb crazy boy who leaves the world when it comes anything and everything about you :’)

I am still waiting for you and I know you’ll never come.
The pain is agonising, Pains have been part of my life, I’hv lived with them and learnt.
God is always cruel to one sided lovers including me. God will not see our pain and tears. He makes us worthless and suffer till eternity. This is our fate.